YouR FiRsT REAL hEarTAcHe

hurricane

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 18:48:17 GMT

im still here
im still alive.
smokin and thinkin
you know those thinks you hate to think?
thinking everythink you shouldnt think.
you know the truth, you know the real love
parinoia, it scares me.
just my one love. thats all i need
but love for me?
sometimes its not where it needs to be.
fucked up hormones.
MOTHER EARTH'S ANGRY
see, it's not always our fault.
its the wind and the rain.
the love and the pain.
someday it'll go away.

rastafari
smoke and get me high

ktshairsalon

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 04:13:24 GMT

ahhhhh
i see the time
all that time thats passing right in front of my eyes
that minute was your time
and this minute is his time
wait patiently for your time god damnit.
god damn you people.
always in such a hurry.
hurry for what?
grow some gray hairs?
have someone push you in a wheel chair all day?
too old to smoke some herb??!!!
'''''''never too old for that'''''''
ill be cremated with extra added buds for a nice aroma.
i had an ingrown hair on my armpit.
im glad to inform you that its ok now. just a little furry. and a little bump in occuring.
a childhood is a head full of adventures.
my life is one to love.
kt and bobby are the ones to love
so im gonna murder her hair.
love you.

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 04:25:14 GMT

i dont mean what i do
im just uncomfortable around you
twirl and dance
lean in and snatch my kiss
wwwwwwwwhhhhhooooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i dont know what im talking about.
maybe i would know what im talking about
if i wasnt confused by you
all of you.
when youre gone
everyone else is gone
theres no one but you.
cant speak too loud
they might whisper what you say
and what you say theyll think the damned.
be what you be
and say what you say
theyll think one day
they shouldve done it your way.

deep thoughtless thoughts by melanie boese

beginning of the STONED AGE

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 03:54:30 GMT

yo yo yo motha fackers!
ice ice baby...
dread lock rosta...
ewww coffees cold!
kts lazy but sexy.
made 15$
fuck that,
im on high times.
bobbys lips
livin in the STONED AGE.
whats wrong with you people?
at least you all arent like that.
working for money
gonna buy toilet paper
then rub shit on it
cuz thats what money is
SHIT
well, its 2004
the adventure begins
wonder when itll end
hope not anytime soon
cuz i love you.
sing to me.

please dont tell kt that i love her. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

wheres the snow??

Sat, 06 Dec 2003 19:19:17 GMT

my life's so content right now. a little toooo content. it scares me for the future. things this good cant stick around that long.
my tarrot card reading gave me a sad look for the future. its crazy how close to your reality they are. somethings gonna happen, the only thing i can do is sit back and wait.
why do i feel so outta place? i cant help it. everywhere and everyone i look at seems so odd. too odd for my eyes. im scared the little i have, i wont have for long.
i need to open up my eyes wider
absorb everything good in this world
and keep it in my head.
maybe its my lost mind.....
couldnt really tell ya

Thu, 04 Dec 2003 19:37:49 GMT

kts home tomarrow! im excited. need to tighty up a bit.
sometimes, i cant wait till the future. or just to know so im reassured. maybe my tarrot cards will have an answer. an answer for myself.
none of you will understand what i write cuz you will never know what i mean. i could explain, but you will never understand. i dont know what im talking about.
i think jane misses outside. i feel bad for her.
i left my phone at bobbys. i guess i have no contact with the outside world
not that that would make any difference.
ill stop talking and stop confusing your brains along with mine.

cars and phones and diamond rings
bling * bling
those are only removable things

i love you

polk-a-dot strips

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 03:22:05 GMT

just like that
im ktless
ill be ok
ill get through these 9 days
my big sister's here for 3
i missed her
but she just walked in the door with food
im parting tonight!

my sugestion to the world:
go roll yourself a big blunt and eat many shrooms.
love the world like me
id you dont, youll be sorry

i must bond with my sister now.

i smell semen

Sat, 22 Nov 2003 19:27:06 GMT

house is empty
full of shit
this isnt a minor party house
good...slow down alcoholics
good thing im drinking now
what do expect me to do
a mess to clean
people to kill
laundry to do
nobody to talk to
i talk to myself
or jane and marley
theyre sleeping
after marley peed on the bean bag
feel free to sit there.
no drama
a bottle of hornsby's hard apple cider
a tree with no weed
kts trying to be sick
damn communist work wont let her
just be like me and forget to go to work
thats getting me fired
come visit me at the silver spoon and give me money
when im high, you freak me out
are you my friend?
i think only kt bobby danielle and my family love me
but thats ok.
your guys's loss
somebody needs to stop stalking kt
actually everybody needs to stop
you fucking obsessed psychos
shes mine
only i can watch her when she doesnt know it
shit, i mean, you sick fuck.
i live on bobby blvd. lane
i have to go since you all hate m e
im gonna get drunk off of 2 drinks! YYYEEEAAAHHHHH!

messy dread

Fri, 21 Nov 2003 05:08:38 GMT

i sittin here high
watch the time go by
im sitting in victoria secret
in a broken seat...
no more no more no more school for me
hahahaha....fuckers....im frreeeeeeeeeeeeeee

a frosty will be in my tummy
ill wake up to the silver spoon
and pace there like a beaver

trash for trashy people

janes in heat and likes to masterbate kitty cat style
what the hell are you talking about??.
im posting in live journal?
QUEER

good night you pot smokers. sleep peacefully.

what i think about you.

Tue, 11 Nov 2003 17:37:19 GMT

oh oh now now now .. herb the gift from the earth.. and from the earth is Ja' Greatest worth.. if you dont like my fire .. then dont come around.. cause im gonna burn one down
~Ben Harper.

dread head

Fri, 07 Nov 2003 16:47:24 GMT

i feel like dressing up like a bunny
and bunny that runs around franticlly knawing on everyones ankles until they collapse.
thatll teach you fools.
little bunny foo foo
he turned into a goon
ill turn you into a goon
maybe im already a goon
fuck it, i guess it really doesnt matter anyways

i hit brian over the head and knocked him out. he deserved it.
ccaaaaannnnnnttttttttt cooooonnncentrate!!
aderal...here i come
"yes dr...*cough* i have a d d....."

my dreads need beauty. please come beauty.

mimis coming. shes beautiful.

so is kt. yuuummmmm

im gonna go cuz you livejournal fucks probably dont even this. oooooooohhhhhhoooo... that girls toooo wierd...boobbboooohhooooo. fucker.

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 03:51:26 GMT

Jane, jane is the name of my baby cat. marley is now the name of janes baby kitty. i dont know if kt will like it. she didnt like the last one. canibus.

Melanies World.

Sat, 25 Oct 2003 19:47:18 GMT

FEEET !

UGA BOOGA!

NEEEAAAA! (HORSE SOUND)

KTS FUCKING FEET.

BRYYYANS STUPID PRETTY FACE

MY NAME IS CWISTOPHA

IM PRETTY

LATTY DATTY WE LIKES TA PARTY

GANGSTA THUG LIFE FOR REAL!

happy birthday to..who?? TOO MEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 23:37:02 GMT

what is tomarrow?? hmmm....its sept. 11! no, dont be sad! its my 18th birthday! be happy. because ill be happy and that's all that matters. anyone who loves me should visit and play with me on my birthday. feel free to bring a blunt, bowl, bong, or whatever you prefer with you. i wont mind. or i guess you can just bring your body. that'll do pig, that'll do.

i have a phone again! yippee! its the same number. 850-8304. call me. and say HAAAAPPY BIRRRTHDAY!
just do it god damnit.

im gonna go buy some porno tomarrow. some dirty midget porno. just cuz i can. you can comme what it with me. bring pop corn or cheetas. ill buy some cigs too

i think ill just go to miami this weekend and party with sis and gay ppl. i like them.

im gonna watch may with kt chelsea ashley and nicole get back.

remember ALF

milk and donuts milk and cream

Mon, 08 Sep 2003 03:32:48 GMT

september is such a beautiful month. kts convertible, my birthday, the septembrevibe is in the air. and its blowing hard.

theres so much to think about in life. i try to think about it but its sooo much i just stop thinking about it. it works. it helps confusion. and shady kids. no. not slim shady. mmmmm.... more like bobby blvd. the shadow of my life. and thats a good thing.

jack johnson. if i only knew you. ill settle for second best.

my throat hurts. it because i have blisters on my tonsils. i force myself to eat sometimes though. its hurts, but munchiness takes over.

im so content with my life right now. i love it. i love people in it. thats it. im getting a tatoo of the virgo sign on my arm. shhhhhh...ill do it anyways. cuz ITS MY BIRTHDAY! on thursday. thats right! the big 1 8. im excited
so excited i have to go to sleep.

goo night kt. i love you and your not here so im stoned and sleepy. lol. i love thy friends.

eat too much peanut butter and scream

Wed, 30 Jul 2003 06:44:42 GMT

WELCOME TO THE LIVEJOURNAL KULT. ALSO KNOWN AS THE LJK. beware. it can become addiciting. PLEASE keep your distance. from everyone. except for a couple of you. alot of you are exctiing. i just dont really know you. others are 2 faced back stabing modules. i dont know you th0ough. and im glad i dont.

im glad i know kt. thats just cuz i love her. youre such a good person and own such a kind soul. remember what you have and who you are. who you wanna become. youre such a beautiful person. i love you.

i dont know if i want a relationship again. i feel like its too soon. theres still more of me i need to find. its hiding somewhere. underneath the blankent maybe. or underneath his pants..oooooooo....hes so awesome and sweet though. i dont wanna miss my chance. i think hes a virgo.

i dont understand the world and the way life works. why is it that i have to make some many decisions. why dont some people know how to have sex? is it too soon to love? love conqueres all. in your heart. i wanna see the future. i t hink i might do it. i think im need to take a shower.

i have dread locs now. theyre gonna be sweet. i cant wait til then. im a dirty ass mother fucker.
i feel like im 8. i wish i was. goodnight.

this is kt.. being melanies life

Tue, 22 Jul 2003 18:07:13 GMT

melanie danielle boese is my name..
i smoked herb this morning
i have a long tonge
hmm..
im on the phone with kt
i miss you all
you live journal FUCKS~!!

David and cassey are comming tomorrow from indiana..
im gonna have sex with my new cat jane.. cause shes C'r'a'z'y

sometimes you cant have sex with other people cause there..fuckin fucked.. UP.

i.e. YOU!
HEHEHEHEHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

I AM INCHARGE OF YOU
SO
NOBODY KNOWS WHO YOU IS
INSEPT FOR MAYBE YOU ...

CAUSE YOUR FUCKING STUPID.. ( MELANIE LAUGHS ALOT)

MY NAME IS KATIE ANN FERNANDEZ..
BUT MELANIE TOLD ME TO TELL YOU ALL OF THIS..CAUSE SHE IS CLEANING HER ROOM. AND I AM ABOUT TO DYE HAIR..

MELANIE SAYS "SHE IS MASTERBATING WITH HER MONKEYS TAIL" AND ONCE AGAIN KT'S CELL PHONE DOESNT WORK.. SHIT

MELANIE IS GONNA TAKE YOUR ADRENALIN AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS TO HER.. YOU LIKE THAT ? DOES IT SCARE YOU?
she hopes she likes it

GOD BLESS AMERICA

reaccuring nights

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 17:33:32 GMT

be a bum all day
work all evening
stay up till the wee hours of the night
watching behind my back, making sure no creep is following me
holding my pepper spray in my hand
thinking about sex but not doing it
getting fustrated because of that
being annsy all the time

i feel like im waiting for something right now. i hope its something good cuz im sick of waiting for it. hmmm..maybe its some e-mails im waiting for. cuz im not getting any of those. poopheads.

for some reason im missing someone that i shouldnt miss. i dont know why i am, but i am. is there a cure for that? it doensnt really bother me that much though. hmmm...

Wed, 04 Jun 2003 19:54:17 GMT

well, im in indiana right now. its a tad bit nippely here. but it feel good. its a change. visiting old friends and hanging out with ppl that i knew just never hung out with. its a fun time. weird at times. but enjoyable weirdness.

my bellyring hurts.

im throwing myself a party on friday. should be fun.

hope all u floridians are enjoying your summer.

I LOVE YOU KT!!!!

awkard silence

Tue, 27 May 2003 00:00:46 GMT

its been soo long since i written in here. i feel a bit weird.
congrats to all you high school grads! i wish i were you. but im not.
soooooon....no school.
i hung out with a lot of amazing people this weekend...one or 2 dickheads here and there. cant get rid of those kinds yet.
LOVE is blind
LOVE is passion
LOVE is romance
LOVE is someones butt
LOVE can feel wonderful
LOVE can make you feel like shit
LOVE will always be there
LOVE can make you shake
LOVE is always new
LOVE is random thoughts on love
i LOVE love

im shutting up for the night. ill just go frolic with the gnomes that live in my forest.

YouR amaZing

Sat, 26 Apr 2003 22:31:46 GMT

INCREDABLE. thats all i have to say about last night. its amazing how you can meet someone soooo wonderful. why do you find them when you do? i dont really care. all i know is that im overwhelmingly happy.

i need a prom date now. dont really want to. but i should since everyone else are going with BOYS. oh well. ill bring my rubber vagina instead. sounds grand to me.

im off to babysit and play barbies. have a wonderful night and beee safe. dont drink in drive you alcoholics.

BUNNIES!!!!

Sun, 20 Apr 2003 16:48:44 GMT

HAPPY EASTER to all you livejournal and nonlivejournal friends. i hope you have a nice one.

i have butterflies sometimes.

HAPPY 420 to all too. hope you have a swell one of those too.

InCuBuS

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 19:23:03 GMT

ahhh...i felt like i was walking on clouds last night. no, i wasnt on any hallucinagens. i love meeting awesome new people. where have they been all my life? just like brandon boyd. where has he been all my life? incubus is my destiny. and he is my dream man.

you guys should go to a free show and the LIQUID CAFE on this THURSDAY. my friends bands playing around 930-10. AKWARD SILENCE. there a mix between pink floyd, incubus, blindmelon and other stuff like that. they should be really good. im excited to see them, so should you.

make yourself

Mon, 14 Apr 2003 20:27:08 GMT

my exboyfriend of 2yrs, mom died the other day. you dont even know how bad i feel for his whole family. seeing all of them without her there. its a reality check. marcs so stong though. i really do admire him sooo much. she lived an exciting life. ill miss her.

my mind is blank. i dont have to work today. what to do..what to doo...hey, i know. lets go interview elvis. damnit, i think i will.

Fri, 11 Apr 2003 05:25:02 GMT

i had the last entry deleted cuz your so fucking lame and retarded. i love you friends. james, if you wanna say shit and let the drama continue, come to my house when im home and say it to my face you fucking pussy. you know im right with everything. enough with you. youre a thing of the past that i forgave myself for and will never ever look back on. leave me the fuck alone. i dont say anything bad about you except you hurt me. whatever.

"im about to see all the things ive never seen before, and i
im about to do all the things ive dreamed of and i dont even miss you at all....
good bye to you , goodbye to you, youre taking up my time. goodbye to you."

~~*YouR FiRsT REAL hEarTAcHe*~~